Unwanted puppy had a happy ending - Maryanne

The puppy & Maryanne

When I decided to go get a new dog I was deeply saddened over the loss of my Ritta and the sudden loss of Martini. The depression would have overtaken me, but my God Most High helped me move forward. God who pulled me through, like always. 

We searched and searched, weekend after weekend and I saw not one dog that would fill the void left by my Ritta and Martini. I cried every time I looked at a dog, my Jack Jack was even looking a little depressed of the loss of his sisters. He was acting a little different. I was acting a little different. I prayed and kept searching. I cried every time I looked at a dog, I wanted to take them all and I didn't want them at all, my heart was broken and nothing was filling it (I cried and prayed). 

I saw this dog all curled up and I tried to play with her (no luck), so frail and scared looking. She looked frozen with fear. Then I held her, not knowing at the time the rescue probably drugged her. She looked terrified and I knew she needed to feel safe and feel loved. So we held her for hours. The shelter guy even offered us to take her just for a couple days to see if we liked her. He was telling us her story, my sadness got deeper and deeper. Listening to Maryanne's story, no wonder she was so sad.

The puppy & Maryanne

He told us she was rescued in Putnam County Florida, from a hoarding backyard breeder situation. I forgot the number (maybe 200 or 300 animals and a single wide mobile home). I can't imagine so many animals in it's a little trailer with no room to walk, always created. My heart hurt. But if that wasn't bad enough, she was adopted by an elderly couple and because she was so scared she wouldn't play (they took her back to the rescue), my heart shattered.

My husband said we could take her home for the weekend and I told him, "You know if we take her home, even if we hate her we're not returning her!" As we drove home her it seemed that the drugs started wearing off she started whining and whining and whining in terror. 

When we got home We noticed that she was scared to be in the backyard, on the concrete, in the front yard on the grass, scared of the tile and scared of the carpet. She was scared of absolutely everything. When she pees she squats really low to the ground, someone told me that's because she was created her whole life. Not sure if that's true or not. I feel like they never took this dog out of the crate based on her behavior. They just bred her and created her. 

Jack Jack LOVED her and was always cleaning and snuggling with her. Approximately a year after we got her, she finally let us give her cookies. Before that, we had to toss them on the ground in front of her and we had to walk away from her food so she would eat. She bonded with my husband and I first, because we were the ones who cared for her the most. The funny thing is she continually barked and barked at everyone else in the household, like they were strangers and she hadn't been looking at them for the past 2 and a 1/2 to 3 years.

On Halloween day 2021 we had a incident and my other dog Jack Jack, he had to be put down. And she was her normal terrified self just like on day one. We gave her so much extra love but again my heart was broke. 

My husband didn't want another middle aged or old dog because if the incident, if I had to get another dog it had to be a puppy. And of course my heart would not allow me not have another dog, Dogs seem to mend my broken heart. God led us to this cute little puppy in Georgia. 

This is where Marianne's story gets exciting, this puppy was 3 months old and was so annoying I was just beating myself up and my husband for getting a puppy, not really. I wanna say when the puppy was 6 months old Maryanne started really taking a shine to her, but the puppy didn't act like her Big Brother. It took a little bit of time, then they began bonding. Now mind you this puppy was about the same size if not a little bigger than Maryanne when we got her and now she triples the size of Maryanne. 

One day we were outside all the dogs dogs and I noticed Maryanne was playing tag with the puppy. Then I began to pay attention she played tag with the puppy and wrestling with the puppy a lot. Maryanne has been with us almost 3 years now and she has lost 3 of her packmates.  Having been been through  so much trauma. She has come a long the way, I finally got to witness her blossom and become a real dog. This puppy now 11 months old brought Maryanne her out of her shell. 

God-bless me with this amazing gift, I got to witness Maryanne become a real dog. I LOVE to watch them play every day and I just can't get enough of it. As annoying as my little puppy is now 11 months old, she was the best thing for my little Maryanne. God has blessed us in so many ways and right now that is the number one thing. 

Leave it to a little unwanted dog rescued from backyard breeders and who deserves a chance to be happy and make others happy along the way. Earlier I wrote even if I hated her we would keep her until the end, but you can't hate a dog they are full of so much love that it will over flow to those around them. They just need time and given that 2nd chance or 3rd chance they just need time need time to come out of their shells. 

Almost 3 years and she's a real dog and she stopped being barking at the other people in our house and finally she allows them to pet her (I believe that the puppy help with that too). And now she realizes as a result she gets so much more love, cuddles, pets and belly rubs. We had to give her time and the (in my opinion) puppy opened the door to become a happy and real dog for for her a little bit faster. It's amazing to watch and I'm so thankful to God for allowing me this opportunity to grant these dogs theirs 2nd and 3rd chances. 

God's work is also being kind to his creations, his animals. The moral of this story is don't just get a dog because you wanna pet, they are a life long family member that you need to be committed too. Don't just get a dog because you want to say you have a 100% pure bred whatever type of animal. That's not fair to all the ones out there that need to be rescued, who need homes and love. 

Make sure you give your rescue all the time they need to come around then trust you. Some will trust you easier than others. I had my one dog and took her almost 10 years before she even gave us a kiss. They're all different but they all need time to overcome whatever their problem was. Love and time, it's all that we can do for these animals that we choose to put in our lives. Don't just get a dog, get a friend. I realize they are also meant for protection, that's what mine are. But I still love them like my little furry babies. Like they'd protect me, I will protect them.

I have a pack of 100% pure bred rescue dogs. They have been the best  and the worst (3 bites and 2 emergency room visits),  but I will still take care of them and love them until the end of their days.

  

 

Maryanne & Jack Jack

 

  

  

Jack Jack & Maryanne

 

Mixed Emotions Calmed

God gives me peace.

At times, I want to act— when all I see are lies around me, liars hiding the truth, stealing, deceiving.

Anger rises inside me: Is this what God wants?

I hear silence.

I pray, and pray, every day, "Let me hear Your voice, God Most High."

But I will not let them steal space and time in my mind. I will not let them cause my spirit to wither.

The overwhelming peace from the God Most High is better than letting the liars live in my heart.

You cannot steal what God has given me: Peace beyond all understanding.

I pray for you, that you may be healed, that the lies may cease, and the theft may end.

I will move forward, not look back. I will not be stuck, turned to stone, or bound by anger.

I follow You, Most High God.

Blessed are You, Yahuah our Elohiym, King of all time, for the blessing of the Ruach Ha'Qodesh.

Doing what's right even when it's hard -

Not a typical Sunday, watching church online because I didn't want to leave the house. Halloween day was on a Sunday this year. 

Dogs were running in the backyard having a good time in-and-out of the house making a mess, everything was everything was fine. 

Then there was a noise I started to get up slowly, until I heard the 2nd noise and I got up faster and on my feet, turned around. 

My baby boy about 50 pounds almost a senior citizen, came charging (I was standing in the way of him going into his room, where his create sat) and I was in his way. He was on me, biting my knee, biting my thigh, biting my hand and arm. 

My husband came to try and help but he couldn't get him off. Now both of us on the floor sitting on him, like we were wrangling a cow. He wouldn't snap out of it. I put my free hand in the dog's mouth, pushed down with the arm that was being bit, pulled up with my right hand puncturing my own fingers to try and pride my left arm free. Pushing my left arm into his mouth further, trying to make him release without tearing my flesh. Then I was free.

I couldn't move, for fear he would try for my neck or face because we were all on the floor. 

I could see in his eyes, so clear my dog was gone. I don't know what this was that took over him. 

My husband yelled at me to go go go. I got up super fast and then he was on my husband's arm and I just turned around for a second looking for something to help my husband and he was on my husband's chest. My heart just stopped for fear he would go for his neck or face.

I ran to the room, it's about 20 steps away or less. I grab my gun that is meant for home security. Ran back to my husband leaving blood trail everywhere. 

I looked at my husband, pointed the gun at the dog and he yelled at me not to shoot our dog, but he wouldn't let go. 

As I uttered the words, I don't know what to do I removed the safety and I shot my baby boy. I had to save my husband, I had no choice - only bad and worse options. 

Through all this my thoughts were that no one else that was in the house would be hurt by my dog. I don't even remember much of what they were doing. They had to tell me, all I saw was the dog and my husband. Thank God that he only bite me and my husband. 

I would die to save the life of all the animals we care for. I would never hurt them. 

I know he suffered from PSTD and we have kept him save for almost 10 years from the public and himself. On 10.31.2021 we failed him, we weren't able to save him from himself. 

My point is that I did not shot my dog in hate or rage. I love him and I'm not mad at him. I don't blame him or anyone. I freed my baby from the demons that were tormenting him and saved his daddy. 

I miss him so much and I ask God to tell him that I love him, he is a good boy, and he is free to go and play with his two sisters and have fun. Free of this worldly pain. 

I will still rescue and be the best voice that I can for the voiceless. 

The three dogs that you see here have now all past. They were all the loves of my life and I know that now they are all three together again, playing and having fun. I miss them all and still love them. I lost the 2 girls in July of 2019. 

We must love! Even when it is hard, we must love. Even when we have to make the hard choices or decisions, we must do it out of love. Like God's pure love, like the love our dogs give us. We must love. 

 

My Ritta passed away (Martini left with her too soon after)

Update

My Ritta passed away on 07/06/2019. God gave me the time I asked for and then He took her home. She was ready, even though I was not. I knew it was her time to be free from the pain and the disease. I miss her everyday. I still cry, even right now. On 07/30/2019 my Martini gave up, I guess she needed to go with her Ritta (she was too young to die, not even 10 years old) and my heart broke into a million pieces that day. At least they are together, my babies and my loves.

 The original post about my Ritta.   God listens and if speak to Him, He will hear you. 

 God Bless Everyone

I started this Blog to share about helping DOGs & animals in general. I added some sad life stories at a time that I remembered and reflected on from 2017 to 2019 and parts of 2020. Since I restarted a life with Christ and began developing a RELATIONSHIP with Christ, I have been catapulted into a NEW LIFE and direction. 

NOW "Be a voice for the Voiceless" will focus on people and God (all life, not just animals). 

God is our voice, our inner voice, our guide to life & so much more. 

We are/will be developing a plan to engage the audience/the people. 

Be patient, it is all in God's time. 

Much love and peace be with you all. 

speaking to my Father one night

Father I've been bad

I love you my child

Father you know all I've done

I forgive you my child

Father I am sorry

Nothing you do will cause me not to love you, even in anger I love you my child

I can never thank you enough for what you have done for me for what you have given me

I am the father you are my child, when you fall I will pick you up, when you cry out I will reach out with open arms,

Father I am hurting, my heart is in pain

My child when you hurt I will comfort and ease your pain, I will protect you my child with all my LOVE

Father I love you and I'm sorry for it all, you always come when I need you, when I NEED you

I love you my child

I love you father  

I love you my child

Thank you, Praise God, I love my father, I LOVE my God AMEN

tormented most of my life

Today I felt like sharing something that has tormented most of my life; I took back control of my life from my evil mother. She allowed bad things to happen and then blamed us for what happened to us. My faith has got me to the point where I am not ashamed to talk about it, it is not my fault. God has helped me see that I can move on and be thankful for my life now. Here is the short version and the meat of it all.

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Even as they lose control over the lives that they thought they owned, they lost their grips in reality. The demons inside them constantly tell them to attack us. They search for things to use against us (if they cannot find anything - they will make things up), using others and hurting them in the process too. Telling lies to gain more traction, moving against people that do not do what they want them to do. I will never allow here to control me again.

I will not be nice to her to spare her feelings, I will tell the truth no matter how painful it is to hear. My biological mother will pay, there is a special place in Hell for people that hurt the innocent. God will burn them and anyone who helped.

They play the victims, acting like they are the ones being attacked. Don't be fooled, the devil will not look like the devil when he or she is trying to win you over and get you to join his or her team.

My biological mothers name is Deborah and she is not the victim, her children are the victims. He ex boyfriend Felipe sexually abused (assaulted) the three of us. She allowed this to happen and she refuses to take responsibility for her part in it all. She is not the victim, we are. I would not allow my children to be near her (once I remembered some of what happened).

I would never recommend anyone leave their children with them. She  or her husband or both not sure, told her granddaughter to lie to her parents, thank God that the girl told her mom and dad what was going on and what they asked her to do. 

Thank God we have a chance to break the chain of abuse for our children. I only pray they don't go near anyone else's children, who knows what they might do. I pray that God puts them exactly were they belong.

She allowed the man that beat me daily for 5 years to live with her when we divorced. If anyone hurt her BIOLOGICAL kids, she was on their side.

This is why I stay away from most everyone and I dislike my mother and refuse to be around her. Pray that no one else is ever hurt mentally or physically by her or her partners.

As I have been reflecting on my life moments, I pray for them and I pray for all the victims involved in this circle of abuse and lies. God helps us all, in Jesus name I pray that the darkness is cast out and bound where God wills it to be bound. This I pray so we can all move forward toward God's grace and glory.

 Through all the tragedy and trauma has passed for years I began to notice changes in my life most recently this year big changes in my life.  God is at work in my life and I can try to explain it but sometimes there's no words it just is and I just know. I am blessed, we are blessed and I want everyone to witness and be part of these blessings.

Every Believer Must See This: Satan’s LIE Exposed // Spiritual Warfare

The Devil Inside: What a Mother Should Never Be

Thinking back to the first attack,
we didn’t know what was to be,
what was to become of me,
me, only twelve, turning thirteen.

She was possessed by the lust of a dangerous man,
with a dangerous plan—
a plan for a woman leaving her man,
a woman with three kids (almost four, left on a clinic floor).

Did the lost child belong to my dad,
or the man with the dangerous plan?
She moved us far away from our dad,
we were trapped with her, and the man with the dangerous plan.

He watched us,
he touched me—
I did not know,
I did not see.
It wasn’t only me.

He did more—can you see?
She did not believe me,
she did not believe them.
Touched and tortured,
she denied it, pretending to be a good mommy.

We all ran away from her,
left at about fourteen or fifteen,
trading one devil for another,
leaving her for the lesser of the evils in this world.

It’s confusing to me,
I don’t understand why she let these things happen,
why she let it happen to us,
why she aided in his dark, evil acts.

Through their darkness,
we stood, fighting back,
not knowing our Savior had our backs,
only able to see the dark attacks.

He helped us stand,
He helped us not fall.
Through it all, we stood up,
prepared for the next battle.

This is an internal war,
between a mother and her children,
children fighting from the start,
fighting for love, happiness, and safety
that we'd never find with her.

This long fight finally took us to God’s door,
searching for so much more.
Once we opened that door,
love and happiness flowed through us,
with a new family in tow,
and God's army waiting.

We will not lose this battle,
the battle that started at Mother’s door.
For reasons we may never know,
when God closes one door,
He opens another.
Mother's doors kept us prisoners,
prisoners in life and in our minds,
reality a false tale.

Once the Holy Spirit came calling,
Mother’s door began to fall,
with Holy Spirit whispers,
I no longer fear the dark knight.
I no longer fear the devil at her side,
I no longer fear her demon-possessed soul.

I know that God will have my back
at every single attack—
devil be gone,
with the power of my Lord and Savior,
demons leave us alone,
in the name of Jesus Christ.

Amen. Amen.

Finally at peace,
finally, we can be free.
Now free to become who we were meant to be,
who God wanted us to be.

He has my back

I have discovered through years that the closer you get to God the more the devil fights you

I have discovered through the years when you walk with the devil nothing bad's seems to happen

I have discovered through the years when you talk to God you grow 

You grow close and sometimes bad things happen

Bad things happen because the devil is fighting you the devil is fighting for you he wants to keep you on his side

When I think of being on The wrong side
I will gladly except the fight because I know my God is stronger than the devil

I know my God is stronger than those false gods

I know that my checkered past my,
the abuse as a child,
the bad things that happen in our lives when we were little,
the fact that we will never have a mother,
because she chose the wrong side, not once, not twice,
 but 3 times she chose the wrong side

Because the devil is inside

The devil is inside of her,
the devil is inside her house,
the devil lives with her once twice thrice

figure it out and get saved from the wrath of God

I don't know if she can be saved 

But I know she has never once asked for forgiveness

Not sure how I would react if she did,
 but she has never once asked for forgiveness 

She has never once denied her crimes

I don't know What Her future holds,
but I know how my story will end

It ends with me being on God's side, I will fight for Him I will fight with Him 

  I know the big guy in the sky has my back,
no one is greater than He

The moment I could see clearly

The moment I was awaken

The moment my eyes

Was when Mother told me when we were sitting on the love seat by the bar at your house grandma

She told me she was going to buy your house because they didn't have one for a $120,000

I was so shocked I woke up and slowly began to see what was going on all around me the entire time

She wanted that house for less than half the market value

You may not believe me but soon you will see, Soon everyone will see that I'm not the liar

Soon you will see who the real liar is God knows I'm not the liar I know I'm not the liar I'm not to betrayer of my family

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PEACE

Have your nightmare stopped

Do you sit and watch the clock

On the carousel of life

Hate goes round and round

Peace can not be found

Until you release The pain inside you

Peace will not be found

Just because I don't see

Doesn't mean You're not seen

God is all around you

I pray for us all

I pray for my enemies

I pray for my enemies to live happily ever after far away from me

I pray For house with strong walls

A house divided will surely fall

I pray God's protection for us all

I pray for God to touch us all

Before we fall